The Dissertate
The same dawn of hopes for everyone. The same dreamworld. With a wish to see them again I opened my eyes to a day covered with bruised clouds. A chill in air that everyone can feel. With a numb feeling I realized it was time to face her, face my next biggest fear and closed my eyes again. I knew it was coming, I knew I was weak, I knew... All the time it was about my fate of finding my strength in her. With some empty echos I fell asleep again. When I opened my eyes this time the burning sun just blinded me and then I saw her shadow. "Wake up dear!", she said. "I hope everybody is lying", and she then looked into my cracked eyes reading all that I wanted to say. With a fake smile she said "It was so hopeless... wasn't it?".
I was just restlessly looking into her deep blue eyes; as if it was the last glimpse. She sat down near me placing that gasoline injection near me. She wanted me to move and react. She wanted me to see fly the same way I always used to. I was lying so helplessly with a great wish in my mind that the injection can make me fly. It was just all so quite with a hollow sound of air when she injected me.
"You were never that weak", and she stood up opening her wings, "You have to fly!". I looked her for the last time and closed my eyes. I gave heed to her feet walking away from me. But then she stopped and said " But if some sorrow comes to you, utter my name with sighs, and tell the silence: Memory is true - there beats a heart wherein I dwell. "
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